First Blogger Entry

2009
Tuesday, March 17
1:33:40 PM

Ok, So this is my first entry for our blog. I have to just say that Gabby has done an incredible job at keeping everything updated with what has been going on in our lives, especially with Eva. I am so grateful for everything that Gabby is for me and our little family. She is everything that I could have ever asked for in a wife. She constantly challenges me to do better and to try even harder to be the best person that I can be and I am really thankful that she does that. Gabby has been telling me for a long time that I have been needing to write something here in order to express myself and let others know what I am feeling and what I am thinking personally about everything that has happened to us. I have to admit that it can often be very difficult for me to do that. I guess I really feel that I have the responsibility as her husband to be strong and not let my emotions show too much in order for her to see that I am someone that she can rely on for strength. I know that this is true, but I also am coming to realize that, as she has told me time and time again, I need to have some sort of way of expressing myself so that the things that I am going through don't end up being bottled. up inside.
So here I am. I have to admit that I am finding it a little hard to figure out what to write. I guess I'll start with my feelings for Eva. When Gabby and I first heard Eva's the diagnosis, I didn't know what to think. I didn't know what to feel, so I think I just reverted to my "be strong" feelings and tried to comfort Gabby to the best of my ability. My mind, however, was buzzing. I didn't know exactly what it would mean to us to know that our daughter was suffering from a rare birth defect, but I knew that this would be a trying experience. From that day, this experience has proven to be one of the most difficult that I have yet had to endure, and even so, I am grateful for what we have gone through. I know that Eva was sent to us for a reason. I know that she has a specific purpose here on the earth. I know that she chose to be with us and to go through everything that she is going through. Neither Gabby nor I are sure of the reasons for what are happening, but we both have grown confident (through earnest prayer and fasting) that things are now in our lives the way that they are meant to be.
In an effort to make up for all of the posting that I haven't done, I have decided to include the Lullaby that I wrote for Eva for this last Christmas. I'll try to get the audio onto the blog if I ever figure it out.

Lyrics to Eva's Lulliby

Eva, my angel, oh dear sweet kind child
Hear me, my dear child, I want you to smile.

Little one, precious one
This song's for you
Eva my angel,
please know I love you.

One day, long ago,
your mom and I met.
We loved each other
and so we were wed.

Little one, precious one,
we prayed for you,
Eva our angel,
now know we love you.

Time has now shown us
that life can be sweet.
Even when we face
some days tough to beat.

Little one, precious one,
you make us smile
thank you our angel
we know life's worthwhile.

REPEAT CHORUS

Little one, precious one
This song's for you
Eva my angel,
please know I love you.