Saturday, February 19, 2011

Go Cougars!!!!

We just purchased Jose's graduation packet: cap/gown and announcements! Graduation stirs so many emotions, I'm so proud of my husband, it has been quite the "adventure" these last three years, we've had our scares, our trials and tribulations, but we did it together!! In these last three years I have really grown to know what it means when you say, "my husband is my best friend".
In my youth, it was all about the "besties", I have to admit, its a word I can't stand now, I guess it just seems so juvenile to me. Elementary school, Junior High, High School, College and as I found...even in your mid to late 20's, its all about the best girl friends. Hanging out, Girls Night Out...and I was one that thought that was the only way to live or I guess I couldn't live without them. I mean we had matching necklaces for goodness sake! Sometimes I felt like I was living a scene in Mean Girls but nonetheless I really thought this is what its all about.
And it comes back to this, my conversion to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I think for me it was time. It was time to grow up, granted I was 31...LOL...it better have been time! I was a late bloomer what can I say. My conversion, my religion IS who I am. It is what my family is and its who I want those that surround me to know. I owe everything to knowing that I have a Father in Heaven that loves me, that forgives me, that never judges me and only asks that I try, that I honor Him and Love Him. My conversion has meant my eyes being wide open, even when I want to keep them half shut. My conversion has meant finding and knowing what it is to have a best friend!
Graduation stirs up so much emotion, I look around me and I have wonderful husband who loves me, he always looks at me with desire, even when I look like I just came out of a tornado! He gives me and has given me EVERYTHING I have ever wanted. He works hard, he shares everything with me, even when its not pretty. He's humble enough to hear me out, when I think he's not on the right track. He's given me EVERYTHING...did I say that already? My everything, for now, has a name as a matter of fact, its two names! EVA and EVANDRO!
In my youth, I thought my pleasures would always be found in things like my hair, my clothes, my friendships. But in my "new" youth, I feel like I've learned that there are precious relationships, and I've met some wonderful people here in Utah, and there are forever friends, I have a couple of those, and that the most important relationship is that of family, especially husband and wife. I have had the privilege of being a stay home mom, because my husband loves me, I know thats that everyones desire and I didn't know it was really mine until now. I get to play with my kids everyday, I get to be my babies first best friend! That feeling overwhelms me, there is no girl friend out there (sorry friends) that could compare or measure up.
In my thirties I know who I am I know what I want and I'm lucky to feel this kind of peace. Don't get me wrong its not that easy, doubt is a thief that lingers in the shadows waiting to steal this peace away. But this little mantra helps me remember...I've been there I've done that and now I am where I prayed I would be!
I love these last three years, I wouldn't trade the good, the bad or the ugly for anything! I have truly loved our BYU experience and I pray my children will want the same experience, this is where they were born (well Vandro) this is where Papa and Mamma grew up!

GO COUGARS!!!