Triggers

Its funny how a smell, a picture, a comment can be a strong trigger for an emotion or a memory.  Some times its good to have those triggers, I love Norteño music, it takes me back to the memories (good ones) of my childhood, of our family parties, of my father's love of his native land, of my mother and sister's cooking.

My parents often watched Spanish language movies, Pedro Infante, Vicente Fernandez, La India Maria...whenever I see one playing on Spanish TV on a Saturday night it takes me back.

The smell of the ocean reminds me of my summers in Southern California as a child with my big sister and her husband.

As we experience life and it's trials, there are triggers that will no doubt exist to bring us back to these moments.  The moments that filled us with pain and darkness.  Oh how those triggers set me back...

I guess I'll have to keep working on the good, the happy memories and triggers.

Lyrics to Eva's Lullaby
by Jose M Pena (Papa)
written Dec 2008

Eva, my angel, oh dear sweet kind child
Hear me, my dear child, I want you to smile.

Little one, precious one
This song's for you
Eva my angel,
please know I love you.

One day, long ago,
your mom and I met.
We loved each other
and so we were wed.

Little one, precious one,
we prayed for you,
Eva our angel,
now know we love you.

Time has now shown us
that life can be sweet.
Even when we face
some days tough to beat.

Little one, precious one,
you make us smile
thank you our angel
we know life's worthwhile.

Little one, precious one
This song's for you
Eva my angel,
please know I love you.