Monday, January 27, 2014

Happy Birthday Eva - 2nd Birthday in Heaven!

After your Phoenix Pizza Party, with cousin Corrine!

Singing Happy Birthday to you at our favorite Pizza Place (3rd Birthday)!


My Dear Eva, 

Happy 5th Birthday, its your 2nd birthday in Heaven.

Last year was rather quiet around our house, I still felt raw and tender and my heart still ached in a different way than it aches today.

So, last year, we remembered, we remembered the details of your birth; our family and close friends that helped welcome you into our family. We remembered the feelings that surrounded that day.

I remembered what you sounded like, felt like and looked like.

I remember the wonderful nurses that put up with my hourly calls to see how you were in the NICU while I recovered.

I remember the immediate need to protect you, a feeling I had never felt for another human being before. 

Your last birthday with us, your pizza party in Phoenix and your swim party in Tucson!! How you loved the water!

Happy Birthday my Beautiful Angel!!

Eva when I think of you my heart is full, because of you my heart is full when I look at your brother and sister.

Because of you, I feel so grateful to be their mother.

Because of you I am so grateful to hear them cry out for me.

Because of you I am so grateful to catch every one of their kisses and hugs.

Because of you I don’t take for granted how quickly time flies.

Eva on January 28, 2009 you gave me the greatest gift bestowed to a woman…motherhood!  

I dreamt of you, I prayed for you…and you certainly gave me more than I expected. You have and will always be my perfect child!

Because of you I found out some great things about me, things I could never have been with out you in my life; qualities about me that I probably would have hid away for far too long.

Because of you I want more, I want to know more, give more and be more.

Because of you, Evandro and Camila have all of me.

There is not a moment that goes by that you are not missed, there is not a prayer that is said that you are not mentioned or celebration in our home that you are not included.  I will never forget you, your father, your brother and sister will never forget you!

Happy Birthday My Angel Daughter, Eva Isabel Peña, "some only dream of angels, I held one in my arms" 


We made some cupcakes to share for your birthday!!
It was a little too late for sissy so she was in bed!